Mi Corazon

It is just a little thing
This heart of mine
Not much
But it keeps me going

I guard it
Do the best I can
To take care of it
It's all I have

And it breaks
So very easily
It never grew tough
Always soft, sensitive

And always wanting
That one special one

It can only belong
To one other, see?
It can be shared
It wants to be

Perhaps, the flaw is this;
Not that I loved too little
But loved
Too much

Always soft, sensitive
It never grew tough
And it breaks
So very easily...

Just A Girl

You say you're just a girl
You may have even felt
That "just"
Was an appropriate appellation

Is every sunset just a sunset
Every masterpiece just a masterpiece
The wonders of the universe
Just plain?

Perhaps you need another
Apellation, title
Or better perhaps
You do more than justice to the word "just"

The Silence Roars

Deafening nothingness
Echoes off
A vacuum

The walls close in
And vanish
Into void

Simultaneous light/darkness
Casts black shadows
On black walls

Absence, melancholy
Trying to fill your place
With air...

Only Fooling Me

(another song, from February 2006...)
I come home late to my flat again
From that place I've been, my job, from 9 to 5
I sit and stare into my coffee cup
Things should be looking up,
But I wonder if I'm alive

I call you up, you are my dearest friend
We sit and chat again for hours, so it seems
I say we should go see a movie soon
Things should be looking up
But it seems so only in my dreams

And I lie to myself again
Convince myself that every thing is all right
And I try for myself again
But I'm only fooling me, it's easy to see

The forecast calls for snow again
Seems this winter will never end, it's bitter cold
Guess I could go and build a snowman
And make a brand new friend
But one who'll never get too old

It seems my life is just a mascarade
And all the parts are played by strangers in this play
Aside from some who really know me well
Everyone wears a mask
Guess there's nothing more to say

And I lie to myself again
Convince myself that every thing is all right
And I try for myself again
But I'm only fooling me, it's easy to see

Dreamtime Girl

(this is a song I wrote back in March of 2006...)

I've seen her at least a thousand times
Sitting there outside this flat of mine
She seems to have a dreamy look as she just waits
That's how I know her
My dreamtime girl

Same old bus pretty much every day
The 15-S goin' up Broadway
I wonder if she might have anyone at home
But I can't ask her
My dreamtime girl

We all live inside our prisons
Those walls that we erect
I might just get the nerve one day

To maybe go and talk to her
Or even ask her out
But you know I worry 'bout what she might say

So I'll just dream my life away
Because I know there'll never come a day
Why take a chance and ruin all my fantasies
She'll live in my heart
My dreamtime girl

私は幽霊午前

私は幽霊午前

touch

your skin
so soft
delicate
smooth to the touch
sweet to the taste
the feel of you
arouses me
even the sound of
your breathing
moves me
and your touch
the stuff of dreams

Colors

Paint away the pain
Dark colors
Dark canvas
Heavy strokes on bleak colors
Reminescent of night
Pour the emotions
Into the work
In the hopes
That it will fade

Stormy

Your dark hair is tossed
Each strand
Dancing in the wind

Your dark eyes shine
A contrast
To the dark skies

A storm may be outside
With all of nature's fury
Inside there is a storm as well

The pent up passion
Of expression denied
Let loose in a torrent

Let your love pour out
Let it engulf me
Let my passion fill you

Ethereal

I see you in the sunlight
Your smiling face
Your laughter
You seem to float
Not walk

You are eternal
Yet youthful
Wise yet innocent
You may be on Earth
But you certainly don't belong here

You may be human
You may be mortal
But there is a luminescence
That wells up from inside you
And shines

You may be human
But you are ethereal

Beauty At Dawn

Oh, how I long to see that time
Looking into your closed eyes
As the Sun is barely rising up
In still darkened eastern skies

To know that the night that was before
Was filled with passions fire
To see you in the morning light
Simply brings me more desire

I'd brush your hair aside to look
Upon your lovely face
Resting there, you're still asleep
In dream's warm embrace

My lips I'd very gently press
To your sleeping brow
I'd try my best not to disturb you
You need your sleep for now

Perhaps a smile would start to form
As you dream your dreams
Mortals may need their sleep though
You're a goddess to me, it seems

So rest with ease, my princess dear
As I'd lay there next to you
As you slumber, I truly know
That you're my dream come true

Coldfire

Starts so slowly
Builds
There is love
Oh Yes
There is love
In your arm
In your kisses
It starts to build
More
Reaching
Wanting
Building more
As if emotion
Had grown arms
And had a mind
Of its own
Building
Until the coldfire
That had started
Ever so sweetly
Builds
To a raging inferno
And it ends
And becomes
The coldfire again
Waiting to
Build

Fifty Something

How many has it been?
How many times?
That words have flowed from my brain
Down my arms
Into my fingertips
Across a keyboard
To become digital ink?

How many has it been?
How many times?
That I have looked at you
Across the way
A few yards distant
Just over there
And longed to touch you?

How many has it been?
How many times?
That I have touched you
Ran my hand across yours
To your back
Holding you?

Fifty something
A hundred times or more
It doesn't matter
They are finite expressions
Of the infinity I feel
For you

Be My Love

There is something in your smile
Something in your eyes
Something about your touch
That warms me to the core

To touch your lovely face
To feel your raven hair
To kiss your anxious lips
Makes me simply want you more

Be my fire, be my air
Be my darkness, be my light
Take my breath, steal my heart
Be my day, be my night
Be right here, anywhere
And in my heart is where you are
Be my love

To feel you breathing next to me
As I hold you, dearest one
Can still send chills through me
That I can't describe

Making one to one so dear
Nothing can compare to this
It's the love you give
That makes me feel alive

Be my fire, be my air
Be my darkness, be my light
Take my breath, steal my heart
Be my day, be my night
Be right here, anywhere
And in my heart is where you are
Be my love
Forever in my heart
Be my love

vanished

i did it again
i looked in that direction
expecting to see your face
just a few yards away
smiling
your pixie bangs
hanging on either side
of your beautiful
brown eyes

i was greeted instead
with an empty spot
nobody there
just a vacuum
where the goddess
i love
used to be

she may not be there
but she is still here

Inside of You

Oh show me those mystic places
That lay deep inside your heart
Inside your soul, inside your mind
Inside of you

Your eyes are like a doorway
And they beckon me to step
Into that passage, across that threshold
I must pass through

Oh the stories that must lie there
Oh the songs your heart must sing
Oh how I want to know them all
Oh please do tell

And so if a kiss can be a key
May it unlock the gate into
That inner part inside where
Your heart must dwell

And lo! Alas I've seen it!
And it shines just like the Sun
Its mighty fire can thaw even
The coldest soul

And still it is so tender
So cradle it I will
And keep it safe here in my hands
To keep it whole

Oh I've seen a glimpse inside you
A place of majesty and grace
A princess you must surely be
A work of art

This humble man who stands before you
Who looks on you in awe
And who knows you surely have
Captured his heart

Evidence

Was it just hours ago
When you sat there?
I look at the spot

My mind wants desparately
To put you there
There are hints of
The former inhabitant

The way the fabric sits
The faint smell
Of your perfume
Still there

Perhaps in some
Alternate universe
You are still there
Beckoning me

In this one
I have your evidence
And the knowledge
Of your love