Only Fooling Me

(another song, from February 2006...)
I come home late to my flat again
From that place I've been, my job, from 9 to 5
I sit and stare into my coffee cup
Things should be looking up,
But I wonder if I'm alive

I call you up, you are my dearest friend
We sit and chat again for hours, so it seems
I say we should go see a movie soon
Things should be looking up
But it seems so only in my dreams

And I lie to myself again
Convince myself that every thing is all right
And I try for myself again
But I'm only fooling me, it's easy to see

The forecast calls for snow again
Seems this winter will never end, it's bitter cold
Guess I could go and build a snowman
And make a brand new friend
But one who'll never get too old

It seems my life is just a mascarade
And all the parts are played by strangers in this play
Aside from some who really know me well
Everyone wears a mask
Guess there's nothing more to say

And I lie to myself again
Convince myself that every thing is all right
And I try for myself again
But I'm only fooling me, it's easy to see